A Safe Space 001

So I was crying. For like, 30 minutes, just crying. Crying because my patience with Kyrie was running sooo thin.

We were doing homework together, and it can be so hard to get her to focus. I know she’s capable, and I get so upset with her when she doesn't give it her all. It’s definitely because I care, and want the best for her. Whenever I do get frustrated in my parenting, it is very hard for me not to let that frustration out. I am a short tempered Aries, and though this is no excuse, it’s true. I get mad very easily, especially when it involves the people I love.

After crying for those 30 minutes, I thought, “Wow, no one talks about how hard being a mom is”. It’s always about how much you love your kids, and how cute they are, and #momlife, but never how much they frustrate the fuck out of you. No one ever says, “Hey, today I wanted to rip my fucking hair out”. Mom’s literally go through so many things, and STILL have to act “okay”.

So that’s why I wanted to create A Safe Space. For us. For moms. For women. For people. Like you.

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I always feel really guilty. Like I’m not doing the best that I can, even though I am. I’m not a perfect mom, even though that’s all I want to be. I’m literally just trying my best, and no one ever talks about how “doing my best” sometimes never feels good enough. Do you feel me? Like you know you’re a kick ass mom, but then it’s like you still feel like shit. What do you do when you feel like that?

When it comes to dealing with my frustration, I’m trying to learn to take a step back. I am nowhere close to mastering this, but I am trying. I need to learn some breathing exercises or something. Do some damn jumping jacks. What do you do when your little one is driving you crazy?

Just a little insight, my Kyrie is 5 going on 15, and she’s very FULL of personality. She’s a Virgo. She’s sassy, demanding, and very sure of herself. I love that for her, but it can be very hard to deal with. I never want to quiet her voice, but at the same time, girl you gon respect me! LOL. Tell me about your kids!!

I look forward to doing this with all of you. I want us to come together, to create a community, to not be afraid to cry, scream and stomp together. To not feel bad. To know that it is NORMAL to not have it all together. That it’s okay to not get it right every single time. It doesn’t make you less of a GREAT mom.

I love you all, and I’m always here. This space is always safe.

💗